Thursday, January 20, 2011

Seriously? Like I need something else!

Happy 2011! My year started off with a strange pain in my neck. You know, one of those I must have slept wrong last night and now I have a stiff neck pain. So, I managed through day 1 thinking that all would be resolved soon. Well, it didn't. In fact, it got worse day by day. On New Year's Day, the pain had progressed from just my neck to my neck and down my right arm. Throbbing, keep me awake at night pain made me actually call and make an appointment with my doctor.

She suspected a pinched nerve in my neck and was concerned about the cause of it and sent me for x-rays. She called with the really great (can you hear the sarcasm?) news that I have "narrowing disc space between c-5 and c-6 in my spine. Talk about a punch in the gut!!!! Narrowing disc space . . . pain in my neck (literally) and down my arm . . . am i feeling old or what??????

Still the rotating pain and stiffness between my psoas, adductor and IT band resulting in a very tender and painful back and now this. Ugh!!! Does it ever end?

I haven't done anything yet to call Dr. Philippon's office and schedule surgery. There is something about the thought of dislocating my hip again that makes me queasy and makes it darn near impossible to pick up the phone and voluntarily schedule myself for that. I know it has to be done and I know it's probably inevitable but I am just not ready to deal with it yet. I was originally thinking that I might try for another April surgery but I don't know. Why am I having such a difficult time getting this scheduled? I really want some relief in this back pain and I would think that would be a major motivating factor but it's not. Living on muscle relaxers, anti-inflammatories and vicodin doesn't seem like a good long-term solution, huh?

Anyone care to give me words that will motivate me?